Have manage to lose my blog, so have started again. Seem to somehow have two copies? Anyway, a bit like my progress towards an AF life. A bit muddled. I did well, then I fell. I did well again, then fell. In all that time I learnt a lot about myself. I felt stronger and more positive. I stopped blogging because I was very busy. I also realised that I was trying to sound more upbeat than I felt. It wasn't where I was. I don't want to write a miserable blog, but this blog is for me, to help me.
So yesterday I drank again and I didn't like it. I feel awful physically and mentally today. I have written down how bad it is to remind myself, but am not putting it here, it's too raw.
I'm going to have to add more tools to my toolkit, so I will blog for myself, seek more support and tell more people. I feel positive that one day it will stick because I've read the journey so many inspirational people have made. I want to be one of them.
KT x
Yay! You are back!
ReplyDeleteIt is very important that you make your blog your own.
I write what I feel and think, sometimes up, sometimes down.
It is a healing process.
In terms of drinking, it took me several years to finally be able to face my addiction.
I am glad you are looking at ways you can add more support into your life!
xo
Wendy
Thank you Wendy. I'm giving it another go.
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