Feeling better

Feeling a lot more positive today, but quite fragile.  Got a lot done.  The evening is definitely the hardest part.  I'm tired, but how do I unwind when I feel this tired but can't go to bed outrageously early!

Back again

So, I had success, I had failure.  Life got in the way and my last attempt didn't last.  I'm still not comfortable blogging, and it seemed like everyone else was succeeding.
I'm giving it all another go.  I'm scared, feeling down and alone in my quest.  Seeing the determination of  other bloggers when they've hit a hurdle has given me the will to try again, so here goes.

Day 9

Can't believe it's day 9!  Feel absolutely exhausted, even first thing in the morning.  Had to go to bed ridiculously  early last night.  It's a bit like flu without the fever.  Hopefully this will pass soon.  Onwards and upwards.

Day 6

Still here. Had planned to blog every day, but life is busy and I'm exhausted by the evening.  So I'm getting in early today.  Went for a family meal on Friday night.  I didnt drink, but felt fidgety and tired.
The sun's up.  I've got a lot to do to day, but drinking alcohol is not part of it.

Day 3

I would have caved last night if I hadn't restarted my blog, but being accountable stopped me.  At lunchtime, out of nowhere, my mind looked forward to an evening drink.  Had to supress that feeling hard.  In the evening went for a walk and got back late enough to decide that an early bed was what I needed.
Didn't sleep well and felt exhausted and not great this morning, but forced myself up. Went for a walk in the sunshine. Heard a woodpecker and felt a cool breeze on my skin.  Oh so happy not to have had a drink last night!
I heard an interview this morning with the footballer Tony Adams, who had a well-documented struggle with alcohol, but has now been sober for 21 years.  The interviewer asked him if it was still hard if he went out with friends to dinner if they were having wine.  Of course it was not, it was different now.  To me this brought up the widely held view that giving up alcohol will be a daily battle for the rest of your life.  I'm happy to know from the blogs that I read, that it is tough, but in time the rewards will outweigh the cravings.
Staying strong on day 3

Day 2

Nothing earth-shattering to report, just a strong resolve (not those hangover medications, the other type) to get back on track. Exercise programme sorted and green smoothie as I type this. Feeling better already!

Day 1

So it all went pear-shaped. I was doing well, being strong when things were tough. I've been super busy and not kept up with the sobershere that has been such a support.  Then I found that when close family members are having a really tough time and I can't help, or don't know how to, I lose the plot and drink.  How rubbish is that?
So today is a new day 1, but I feel good being honest about that. I'm not going to stop trying to crack this.
Congrats to all of you who have passed major milestones in the past few weeks. For me it's back to one day at a time.